I found Star Wars one year after Revenge of the Sith came out and I spent a lot of time wishing I had discovered it sooner. Even though I was only 11 years old, I felt like I had missed out on so much, especially since there was no more Star Wars to look forward to. When I heard about The Clone Wars movie, I remember being really excited about getting to watch a Star Wars film in the theater. This was my chance. I was going to watch a Star Wars movie with other people in the theater and it was going to be just like the end of that Episode I documentary when Rick McCallum is hyping up the crowd and everyone has their lightsabers out and the entire audience is screaming at the sight of the Lucasfilm logo… yup, it was going to be just like that.
In 2008, when I was 13, I had only recently become a proud Star Wars fan. I spent a lot of the first few years being embarrassed by liking Star Wars. It wasn’t cool at the time and my family and classmates thought it was for boys. So, when The Clone Wars came out it was a breath of fresh air and it felt like there was something to be excited about in the Star Wars fandom again and this time I was going to be apart of it, at least, that’s what I thought.
When I discovered the character of Ahsoka Tano, I remember being so disappointed. My only reason being was that I had written fan fiction (I didn’t even know it was called fan fiction at the time) about a girl who went on missions with Obi-Wan and Anakin and who had been a favorite of Master Yoda’s. I know, right? Anyways, I loved that character so much and often wished I could escape into the Star Wars universe and be her. As you can imagine, when I found out who Ahsoka Tano was, I felt a rush of anger and disappointment and jealousy. I never went to go watch the film at the theater and even though I did eventually watch the show on Cartoon Network, I became ambivalent about the whole thing. I thought Ahsoka was annoying and immature. She was around my age and nothing like the character I created in my head.
It wasn’t until season 3 that I started liking The Clone Wars. I don’t know if it was the show itself or having gone to Star Wars Weekends and Star Wars Celebration V that really changed my mind, but it was definitely around that time when I realized this is the Star Wars that’s part of my generation and the Star Wars that I’m growing up with. I felt like I had to be proud of that and also… the show just got better as it progressed.
As time passed, I realized that Ahsoka was changing and growing up, just like I was. I can’t really pinpoint what episode or moment made me start liking Ahsoka, but I can tell you that watching her walk away from Anakin and the Jedi Order made me an emotional wreck. It was in that moment that I realized Ahsoka had grown on me and I cared about her journey. I remember watching it in my living room alone and regretting how much I hated her at first, but I had to grow up to realize that she actually meant something to me. I felt a connection to her and have loved her ever since.
It’s been 10 years since The Clone Wars premiered and thinking back on the show and my relationship with it has made me incredibly nostalgic. It takes me back to the early days of my fandom, when I was just starting out and going to Star Wars Weekends to see all the voice actors. It reminds of my first Star Wars Celebration and the beginnings of Her Universe. I love the sequel trilogy, I love what Disney has given us, but sometimes when I think about those days when all we had to look forward to was a new Clones Wars season and a Robot chicken special, it makes me smile and miss it in a weird way.
If you don’t know by now, there will be new Clone Wars episodes from Lucasfilm and Disney in the future. It was announced at San Diego Comic Con and pretty much blew everyone’s mind, mine included. I wasn’t expecting it, I didn’t even think it would be possible, but someone at Lucasfilm is paying attention and I am grateful.
The episodes will be released through Disney’s streaming app and there will be 12 in total. I am so happy about this and I am happy for Dave Filoni who finally gets to complete his first show in the way he always wanted to. It feels like Star Wars really is Christmas now and it just keeps giving us gifts every year, whether it’s in the form of a TV show, film, book, or comic. I truly have never been more proud to be a Star Wars fan. After all, once you’re a fan, you’re in this life for good.