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New Year, New Goals

Hi. Happy New Year.

We are practically half way through January and I’ve been thinking a lot about what I wanted my first post of the new year to be. As much as I wanted to talk about Star Wars, I also wanted to give an update on my life and my goals for the rest of this year.

I’m bad at resolutions. Every year I try to think of “good, healthy” ones or “easy and obtainable” ones, but I never really get around to achieving them. This year is different, in May I will be graduating from college and while that is a goal in itself, I’m worried about what comes next. My current job is not at all what I hope to do in the future. It’s a part-time job I got to pay the (luckily) few bills that I have and of course to work and have money for myself.

One of my goals is to find something new by the end of this year. Whether it’s an internship or another part-time, I want my new job to be something that I’m passionate about. Sometimes working at a place where you find yourself miserable takes a toll and I no longer want to be miserable. I have already started to work on my portfolio and I’m looking to implement it somehow with my blog. Stay tuned!

Another goal is to focus more on the blog. Yup. When I started Jedi Lore, I had a couple of things in mind. One was to write more and find my voice, the other was to engage online and interact with others. I can think of a lot of excuses, but for the most part I was lazy and unable to find inspiration for posts. All I know is that I want Jedi Lore to be a personal/Star Wars blog with some geek/pop culture on the side. Nothing crazy, right? I honestly can’t wait to start posting more and hopefully meeting new people online.

I love the beginning of a new year because it really does feel like a fresh start. Getting a new job and focusing on my blog are my two goals of 2018. I hope a year from now I can look back at this post and happily say for the first time ever I attained my goals.

Somebody hold me.

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Leia is a Princess, Carrie Fisher was a Queen

My love for Carrie Fisher is unconditional.

I didn’t know her and I never got to meet her. I had so many chances over the years that I now have so many regrets. I did, however, get to be in the same room as her at Star Wars Celebration V in Orlando, FL. And I can honestly say that she brought with her a unique and dominating presence that both scared and delighted you. She was so self-assured in her tone and body language that it was almost intimidating. This woman who had been through so much had the ability to captivate you while also making you laugh uncontrollably. Her humor was unique and self-deprecating and I will miss her forever.

For anyone who may have not known too much about Carrie or her life, I’d recommend watching the HBO documentaries Wishful Drinking and Bright Lights, as well as reading the Wishful Drinking autobiography and The Princess Diarist, which was released roughly a month before she passed. Other recommendations would include her semi-autobiography Postcards from the Edge and watching any Star Wars Celebration panel she’s featured in on YouTube (they are absolutely hilarious).

Her writings over the years have inspired me to be confident in my own writing and in my own life. The reason Carrie is so beloved, besides playing one of the most recognizable characters in film, is her openness regarding mental health. I deal with a lot of anxiety every day, I have never been diagnosed with anything, so I will refrain from attempting to label myself. However, I do know that I don’t feel as alone when I read about someone else’s struggles and Carrie spoke a lot about her struggles. She desperately wanted to put an end to the stigmas that surrounded mental illness and its treatments.

I felt like writing about Carrie because she’s in the news again. I didn’t want to discuss what most outlets are talking about because it’s not really important. Carrie Fisher was a Queen. For all her faults and all her flaws and everything that made her human, she was able to survive a lot of traumatic experiences. She was able to pick up her head and take back her life, even if it was just for a period of time.

In the end, she lost.

I know that she not only inspired me and countless others, but she will continue to inspire for years to come. It won’t just be Star Wars fans, but little girls, and people who suffer from mental illness and addiction. Her openness will save people. So, maybe… she won after all.

Rest In Peace, Carrie Fisher. Thank you for all that you did while you were here, for constantly fueling my “fuck off” attitude, and the inspiration to wear lots of glitter no matter the occasion.

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Day Out: 136/365

Yesterday we visited the Morikami Museum and Japanese Gardens in Delray Beach, FL. My SO is a really big admirer of Japan and its culture and we had been wanting to go for a while. The museum unfortunately was closed, but the gardens were open and were absolutely beautiful. I saw lots of flora I had never seen before and I got to hear the sound of bamboo blowing in the wind, which made me very happy. We also experienced a centuries-old tea ceremony and ate the most amazing Pan-Asian cuisine at their Cornell Café. I would highly recommend a visit to Morikami if you’re ever in the South Florida area, it’s a really unique way to spend the day.


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Star Wars, you’re old.


My name is Lauryn. This is my blog.

While I have started and quickly abandoned many blogs in my life, this is my first official blog. I hope to have this blog with me for however long I choose to tell you about my life, and if you haven’t guessed already, this blog will most likely feature a lot of Star Wars. Sorry, not sorry.

Some fun facts about me: I watch a lot of movies and TV shows! Too many, in fact. I may have a problem. I love writing. I can’t say I’m any good at it, but it’s one of the reasons I’m here. I hope blogging will inspire me to write more and eventually write my own original material. I’m also a pop culture fiend. I consume most forms of entertainment like video games, music, comedy, podcasts, etc.

I guess you could say I’m a nerd.

Now that I’ve given you an idea of what this blog will feature and the topics I will probably discuss in the future, I want to focus on something that’s been on my mind recently.

Star Wars.

Yes, Star Wars has been on my mind.

May 25, 2017 marked the 40th Anniversary of the original Star Wars release in US theaters. I will start by saying I’m in my early 20s, so no, I wasn’t there to experience it first hand. However, I have been a fan for the last 11 years and Star Wars has been a huge part of my world.

I discovered Star Wars at a time in my life when everything seemed pretty grim. I was a kid who had just moved from their beloved home state, who started going to a new school with no friends, and who had a hard time adjusting to their new home life.

I truly believe that Star Wars came to me. It found me. I will never forget the feeling of acceptance I felt with Star Wars. I will always remember the summer I discovered these movies. Two months spent watching and breathing in all six films, playing all the old video games I could get my hands on, reading as many expanded universe novels as I could find, researching every character and planet on Wookiepedia and the Star Wars Databank. I was hooked and I never looked back.

Fast forward 11 years, I have been to three Star Wars Celebrations, I have my own personal Star Wars collection, I have introduced several friends over the years to the movies, and to this day I still get the exact same feeling I got when I first saw a Star Wars film, the feeling of hope.

I know. I know. I just cringed.

But it’s true!

If I could use only one word to describe the feeling I got and the feeling I still get, it’s hope. Star Wars took me away from my real life and transported me to a fantastical universe. It gave me something to look forward to and it took away my loneliness. As I got older, I came across other movies and books that I would grow to love, but never in the same way. Whenever I would find myself in a depressed state of mind or whenever I felt lonely, I would turn to Star Wars and get wrapped up in that universe over and over again.

That is why Star Wars is so special to me, because it came to me at a time when I needed it the most. To this day, I return to it looking for some sort of escapism and it never disappoints. So, not only am I celebrating its 40-year existence, but I’m also expressing deep gratitude and thankfulness that it does exist and still continues to give me hope.