Star Wars Celebration and a Solo Sacrifice

So, there’s been some news. Last week the Star Wars show announced the next location for Star Wars Celebration. *drum roll*

It’s CHICAGO. April 11-15, 2019. 5 Days.

Yay?

At first I was excited because we finally got a Celebration announcement after more than a year and I immediately started jumping around the house and thinking about all the possibilities. Then I realized… it’s Chicago.

I’m going to be honest with you, I wanted it to be in Anaheim. I know Anaheim was the popular choice among fans, but I personally just wanted an excuse to go to Los Angeles and visit Disneyland for the first time. I have nothing against Chicago and to be quite frank, I’m happy for Star Wars fans in the midwest who don’t have to travel to either coasts. The past week I’ve been thinking very hard about the pros and cons of attending Celebration in 2019. I love Star Wars Celebration. I have attended all three in Orlando, FL and I hate missing out on the Celebrations that I can’t attend. Watching at home is simply not the same.

When it comes to Celebration Chicago, I can afford it, however, is it worth going in the first place? I’ve been to Chicago before and have made a list of places I would like to visit around the city, but in regards to Celebration, what would I actually be able to experience that would be worth my time and money? I ask this because last year was the first time I was unable to get into any of the big panels. It was truly disappointing. Granted, I refused to wait in line for more than 5 hours because I have officially moved on from that life. In 2010, I waited 14 hours in line to see George Lucas, Mark Hamill, and Carrie Fisher take the stage for The Main Event panel during Celebration V.  I’ll never forget that experience and seeing them on stage, but these days I pay for my own hotel and I don’t want to sleep on concrete. Trust me, I don’t expect to be handed a wristband for waiting in line for 5 minutes, I do however, expect to be treated fairly. Last year my boyfriend and I woke up at 3am because if I was getting into any panel, it was going to be Mark Hamill’s tribute to Carrie Fisher. When we finally got inside the convention center, it was a mess. People started running, shoving, and skipping in line and believe it or not, I literally watched the last few wristbands for the main stage be given away to three people in front of me. I honestly couldn’t believe it and we ended up going back to the hotel and took a nap of disappointment.

I don’t want to spend all this money going to Chicago to just walk aimlessly around the exhibit hall. While I love walking around and hearing John Williams on loop, it just doesn’t seem worth. It’s money I could use to actually take a trip to Los Angeles and Disneyland. It’s money I could use to go to Japan (a dream vacation). The problem is I have until June 5th to make a decision because that’s when the badges and hotel discounts go on sale. The other day I was thinking about how I have never experienced a sequel trilogy panel and that is something I really, really want to do. I want to be in the room and watch that teaser and hear the crowd roar. It’s definitely on the list of pros for going to Chicago, in addition to meeting my favorite podcasters and getting a photo op with Mark Hamill. Sigh, there is so much to think about!

In other news, Solo: A Star Wars Story comes out in just a couple of days! I will not be seeing it until Saturday. I KNOW. I’m making a huge sacrifice because my boyfriend works super long hours on both Thursday and Friday. I can’t wait to watch the movie because I’ve heard so many good things and I’m tired of seeing websites try and spoil the film. Seriously, can you not wait until Friday people?!

Anyways, are you attending Star Wars Celebration next year? Let me know in the comments!

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Life Update: I graduated, now what?

So, I finally graduated college.

Yup. It’s been a stressful five years but I did it. When I started college I knew exactly what I wanted to do and thought that because I was so passionate about it, it would be easier for me. Then I realized that what I wanted to do was difficult to get into and if I really wanted it, I had to step out of my comfort zone and fight for it. A lot of other personal things happened too and every semester became a little harder to complete. But I did it, I fucking did it.

Now that I have my degree, my main focus is finding a new job. The job hunt has not been easy because I need experience and a lot of companies don’t believe in paying their interns. Sorry, but I don’t have the luxury of working for free. The job I work at now has been utterly miserable and I look forward to the day when I can wake up and be happy about going to work.

In other news, Solo: A Star Wars Story is coming out very soon and I am very excited. I have a feeling we are all in for a couple of surprises and lots of laughs. Donald Glover recently hosted SNL and his sketch as Lando was hilarious! I highly recommend watching it because it actually covers some issues that are being discussed right now, like the lack of representation in Star Wars, both in front and behind the camera.

Check it out below:

Hopefully the next time I check in I will have gone to a couple of job interviews or have some new opportunities. I’m nervous about the future but I’m ready to fight for what I want!

 

 

Life Update: Blog Goals, Learning Aurebesh, and Preparing for the Future

Hi.

I thought I’d write a small update on my life since I’ve been feeling really inspired lately. Last month I wrote about my goals for 2018, which are to get a new job before the year ends and to focus more on this blog. Unfortunately, for personal reasons, I am unable to leave my job just yet, but hopefully I can begin my hunt before the summer starts.

As for my blog, things are starting to look up. I’ve become more open and talkative on social media. I’m really shy so it takes a lot of powering through my anxiety to make posts or even reply to others. I don’t know, I guess I’m too aware of the fact that people are going to judge what I write since they don’t know me in real life and I’m afraid of alienating them or just looking like a weirdo. Anyways, I’ve gained a handful of followers on both the blog and social media so that’s a plus. The point of this blog was to interact and engage with other fans who love the same things I love. While I can’t say I’ve made any new online friends, I’ve come across a bunch of people recently who share my same interests and love for Star Wars, which is pretty great. The funny thing is I’ve never wanted to start a Star Wars podcast so badly, which tends to happen with Star Wars fans. You just want to talk about Star Wars all the time and podcasting is way easier than blogging (imo). For now, I will continue to focus on writing and loving Star Wars as much as I can and see where it takes me.

Something fun I’ve been doing in my spare time is learning Aurebesh. You know, from Star Wars? Why on earth am I learning a fictional writing system? Well, first of all, why not? Second of all, secret messages hello! And third of all, I want to be able to read something I see quite frequently in the Star Wars universe and the future Star Wars Land at Disney. Of course I should take the time to brush up on my Spanish or French but nah, Aurebesh is where it’s at.

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Writing each letter multiple times really helps when learning how to read it.
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May the force be with you!

My last semester of college is halfway done and I don’t know how to feel about it. On one hand I am SO ready to be finished with school and never worry about writing a paper again, on the other hand I’m scared about the future. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to pursue and how I can get there and it’s really scary. I know what I would love to do, getting there is the difficult part. I hope that I can figure things out soon so that job hunting will be easier and my mind can take a break from worrying so much.

I hope you all are doing well. If you’re interested in following me on Twitter or Instagram, I’m @jedilore and I’m always up for Star Wars related discussions or anything else on your mind!

(Featured image by Ralph McQuarrie)

New Year, New Goals

Hi. Happy New Year.

We are practically half way through January and I’ve been thinking a lot about what I wanted my first post of the new year to be. As much as I wanted to talk about Star Wars, I also wanted to give an update on my life and my goals for the rest of this year.

I’m bad at resolutions. Every year I try to think of “good, healthy” ones or “easy and obtainable” ones, but I never really get around to achieving them. This year is different, in May I will be graduating from college and while that is a goal in itself, I’m worried about what comes next. My current job is not at all what I hope to do in the future. It’s a part-time job I got to pay the (luckily) few bills that I have and of course to work and have money for myself.

One of my goals is to find something new by the end of this year. Whether it’s an internship or another part-time, I want my new job to be something that I’m passionate about. Sometimes working at a place where you find yourself miserable takes a toll and I no longer want to be miserable. I have already started to work on my portfolio and I’m looking to implement it somehow with my blog. Stay tuned!

Another goal is to focus more on the blog. Yup. When I started Jedi Lore, I had a couple of things in mind. One was to write more and find my voice, the other was to engage online and interact with others. I can think of a lot of excuses, but for the most part I was lazy and unable to find inspiration for posts. All I know is that I want Jedi Lore to be a personal/Star Wars blog with some geek/pop culture on the side. Nothing crazy, right? I honestly can’t wait to start posting more and hopefully meeting new people online.

I love the beginning of a new year because it really does feel like a fresh start. Getting a new job and focusing on my blog are my two goals of 2018. I hope a year from now I can look back at this post and happily say for the first time ever I attained my goals.

Somebody hold me.

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Life Update: Day 319

The past few days have been tiring, stressful, overwhelming, and yet… I finally feel at ease and much happier than before.

Basically, I moved.

I hate the actual act of moving- the packing, hiring movers, praying your stuff doesn’t get damaged or lost, and then the dreaded unpacking. You never realize how much shit you have until you need to find somewhere to put it.

I’ve moved six times in the last ten years, luckily all moves were more or less in the same county. I like having lived in different settings, like a big house to a small apartment to a high rise on the beach and now an apartment in a very suburban area. I like having had different iterations of my room, from spacious to extremely small (you know, the classic jump over the bed to get to the other side). Everything seems perfect right now and we are mostly unpacked. I think one of the most essential items to own is a power drill, because damn do we need one. From Ikea furniture to wall decor, my hands are in pain from using a screwdriver, it’s truly ridiculous.

I hope the new setting gives me a clear mind and inspiration to write more. Now that I don’t have to worry about the move anymore, I should be able to just relax…

…we’ll see how long that lasts.

 

 

Okay, I’m back.

It’s been a while.

Summer really did come and go. A lot happened and I definitely got distracted. For my birthday, I built my first computer and started playing games like Overwatch, PUBG, and World of Warcraft. School started and work got busier, and then a hurricane came… straight for us. I know. It’s October now and I can’t believe Halloween is almost upon us. 2017, this truly shitty year, is almost over.

I did think about this blog often and thought a lot about what direction I wanted to go. When I started I decided that I wanted to do a lifestyle blog. I wanted to talk about everything- the world, my life, Star Wars, etc. It’s kind of overwhelming to have so many options and not really know where to begin. Sometimes I want to go full on Star Wars blog, nothing but Star Wars news, thoughts and opinions, analyses and reviews, fashion recommendations, the whole deal. However, I don’t want to restrict myself if there is something I’m passionate about that isn’t Star Wars that I feel like I have to talk about. So for now I think Jedi Lore will continue as a lifestyle blog and perhaps I will attempt to do a fun Star Wars series that will hopefully help me keep going.

Blogging isn’t hard, I just need to find my place.

Leia is a Princess, Carrie Fisher was a Queen

My love for Carrie Fisher is unconditional.

I didn’t know her and I never got to meet her. I had so many chances over the years that I now have so many regrets. I did, however, get to be in the same room as her at Star Wars Celebration V in Orlando, FL. And I can honestly say that she brought with her a unique and dominating presence that both scared and delighted you. She was so self-assured in her tone and body language that it was almost intimidating. This woman who had been through so much had the ability to captivate you while also making you laugh uncontrollably. Her humor was unique and self-deprecating and I will miss her forever.

For anyone who may have not known too much about Carrie or her life, I’d recommend watching the HBO documentaries Wishful Drinking and Bright Lights, as well as reading the Wishful Drinking autobiography and The Princess Diarist, which was released roughly a month before she passed. Other recommendations would include her semi-autobiography Postcards from the Edge and watching any Star Wars Celebration panel she’s featured in on YouTube (they are absolutely hilarious).

Her writings over the years have inspired me to be confident in my own writing and in my own life. The reason Carrie is so beloved, besides playing one of the most recognizable characters in film, is her openness regarding mental health. I deal with a lot of anxiety every day, I have never been diagnosed with anything, so I will refrain from attempting to label myself. However, I do know that I don’t feel as alone when I read about someone else’s struggles and Carrie spoke a lot about her struggles. She desperately wanted to put an end to the stigmas that surrounded mental illness and its treatments.

I felt like writing about Carrie because she’s in the news again. I didn’t want to discuss what most outlets are talking about because it’s not really important. Carrie Fisher was a Queen. For all her faults and all her flaws and everything that made her human, she was able to survive a lot of traumatic experiences. She was able to pick up her head and take back her life, even if it was just for a period of time.

In the end, she lost.

I know that she not only inspired me and countless others, but she will continue to inspire for years to come. It won’t just be Star Wars fans, but little girls, and people who suffer from mental illness and addiction. Her openness will save people. So, maybe… she won after all.

Rest In Peace, Carrie Fisher. Thank you for all that you did while you were here, for constantly fueling my “fuck off” attitude, and the inspiration to wear lots of glitter no matter the occasion.